I start beauty school in october most likely. I still work at Wendy’s and I am trying my hardest to leave. I have no motivation anymore, I feel so tired. My apartment is a wreck. I now pay my mom rent, fml.

I haven’t felt so sick in my entire life. For three weeks now I’ve felt like the stomach flu has taken over. I get sick to the point I feel like I’m going to pass out. I went to the doctor and I have to get tests done. Blood work is my least favorite. Either way, I feel so drained and I’m always hungry but I get sick and I am left without nutrients it feels like. I hope it’s something that can be easily fixed.

I am not a blogger, lol.

My easter was so much fun. I spent time with my step cousins, especially the babies (twins). They are so adorable and they love me. I’m learning better how to interact with babies. I was always awkward with them at first.

As much as I want to write more, I just can’t. I’m so tired. Last night was…different..and I’m exhausted from it. lol.

Here’s the story about my cats:

In spring 2007, my chorus teacher at school begged her students to convince their parents to get a cat from a litter that her neighbor had. At this time, my mom and I had no cats, they all had passed away over the past 7 years. So I went home and playfully begged my mom. She said that someone had told her there’s another litter also. So, we decided to go to the litter her friend’s had first. When we got there, I fell in love with Tyler (as I named him). We brought him home and he was quiet whole drive. He slept in his little bed that I bought for him right next to me all night until about 6am, then he wanted to play. Tyler was my buddy. He gave me kisses in the morning if i puckered my lips and he was such a sweetheart. He was my favorite obviously.
When the other litter was ready (the one my chorus teacher told us about), we went out to see them. Of course I wanted a girl kitty, but my mom insisted boys were better. I fell in love with little Odi (my mom named him). When it was time to take him home, we put him in the carrier and he screamed the whole way home.
My mom seemed okay with keeping two cats, but unfortunately Tyler and Odi didn’t get along. I wanted to keep Tyler, but my mom wasn’t listening to me about it. One day, I took Tyler to my dad’s house (their cat had just passed so I thought they might like Tyler and want to keep him) and while I was at work on a Saturday, my uncle took Tyler home to see if he was compatible with his other cats. Turns out, they loved him. So I was stuck with Odi whom I was convinced wasn’t the cat to keep.
Odi doesn’t like to be held, he has awful playing habits, he likes to scratch the walls and carpet until there’s nothing left. And he is fat. as. ever.

Summer 2008, my friend from Wisconsin, where she moved a year earlier, was in town and staying at her dad’s. She had three cats: Bibs, Icises, and Oreo. They weren’t being taken care of as well as they should have been and her dad didn’t want them. So my mom and I rescued them. In the end, we kept Bibs and Oreo (Odi’s other half, I swear). Icises was taken to a shelter because she wasn’t loosening up for us and four cats was too much.
Bibs is my girl. I’m like her mommy to her. And Oreo is just….Oreo. Lol.

Pictures

Tyler =] :

tyler and my dog emi playing.

Odi:

the bathtub is his thing. always will be.

yes, he did get his head stuck in this. it was hilarious.

“you can’t see me!!”

I was cleaning the top draw (the bottom was falling out anyways) and his catnip actually fell behind all the drawers and he went and got it really quick when I pulled the drawer out lol. Later on he decided to sit in there.

he always found a way into this plant and he would leave his butt sticking out.

he used to do this all the time until he got uber fat

“how do i use this thing??”mhm

“how do i use this thing??”

We call him Buddha cat when he sits like this.

as a kitten sleeping weird, as usual.

Other cats:

Bibs

Oreo

Icises

I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I wish I could understand this. I just want to go home. With every ounce of love I can’t begin to beg for the truth. Holes in the wall from fists. I feel imcomplete. Everything is spinning.

School started about 2 weeks ago. I dreaded it until 7:00am when I had to drive to the school and even all the way up to the entrance. It’s my last year, but I didn’t want to go. I’m already failing my Honors English class. I’m turning that around this week. Pottery is killing my nails, but I found an awesome nail strengthener. It’s made by Nutra Nail and it has green tea in it. It was about $3 or less at Walmart.

I’ve done a total 4 photoshoots for senior pictures.

I’m having health issues as usual. Hopefully getting them resolved in the next week or two.

I’m trying to be more artsy.

post again later this week.

There’s a new dog day care opening this summer and I want to work there but I don’t see a listing for that specific location yet.

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8:50pm

I just got home from a wonderful evening. James finally called me and we took all of our coins down to the Coinstar. There was a total of $52, but we only got $48 because of the service charge thing. Crazy! So we went to the mall and got me a necklace and candy, then we went to dinner at Red Lobster even though I had just eaten dinner. Ha. We had one dollar left so we gave it to a lemonade stand but didn’t want any lemonade, although I wouldn’t mind some now. But he was being so sweet tonight. He’s been so sweet lately, not that he usually isn’t, we just have our issues. I love him so much.

I laid in the grass today and soaked up the sun. I tried finish a drawing of mine, but I’m having an issue with it. I sat outside in a tanktop and shorts…a VERY rare sight, yet it’s going to be a more frequent one. I am excited to play in the sun all summer and grow up. Although, I’ll be honest, summer scares me more than anything. I usually go through a weird depression/madness and I get to the point that I hate sleeping because of the nightmares I have. For about a week after I experience my firs nightmares, I avoiding sleeping but I can’t go without it. Hopefully this summer will be full of happy adventures.  It’s my last summer until I have to make big decisions.